football funday

yesterday(sunday) was football funday.

it was fun played with two of azim latif cousins, ali h.saini (jis), and me. we were so lucky to be in the funday. we registered quite late and lucky a team didnt come so we played using their names which was like sekolah rendah tanjung kintana or something. weird school.

now im playing counterstrike ahh gila like everyday play online and lan. it's so tiring im kinda getting sick of it thinking of quiting focus more on other stuff. macam no life wah aku ah lagi baik buat kawan and relex.

anyways moving on bout cs. got a online tournament every week which should be fun. theres going to be a kk counterstrike tournament this december but i wont be able to play with my team because i am going to singapore on the 18th and also malaysia on the 22nd i think. so i look forward to meeting up with all my sg and my friends.

anyways i have a match now.
GG.com

peeeweeettt

slept at fizzi's/mummy's house in rimba for about 3 days from wednesday till friday. it was fun. we went to hwa ho mall in manggis for two days on thursday and on friday. i had so much fun and it cheered me up, especially on friday. gila mummy ahh she brought me with this girl and i had a talk with "this girl" siuk ah. yes yes im attracted to her but for how long thats the question yea? ya ada boyfriend. i want to just be friends for now i guess. its not like im stealing her or anyhting right? its nothing wrong with being friends.

i can't text her i cant contact her. what should i do?

geez i miss her so much.
i wish she was here right now.

exams finished

yay!

Finally after a brutal week of studying. doing exams and ESPECIALLY not going to netcom and playing CS. ( Game Nerd = ZIM ) PMB wasn't very hard but at the same time i'm still worried bout my results. Well who isn't right? Even though i had a hard time with my science paper and my malay paper. A few people boosted up my morale, i want to say thanks to two of my online friends namely jerry and liberty for boosting up my morale after my science paper, i really thought it would of been a dull day but nope you guys made my day a fun one. And mummy thank you, i know you believe in me and give me your full support thank you. Babu for always believing me in my method of studying and trusting in me with my studies and knowing that i will do good in life. I love you both babu and mummy.

Exams are over and its time to have fun. Bruneians call me lets go out ! X)

ZzzzZzzzZz

days like this i really wish there was someone here beside me
talking to me comfirting me..
i guess thats what friends are for right...

being single is fun and all but what im trying to find is
someone to be there for me at the end of the day.
someone who i can have fun with share emotions with, (im not gay)

this is just part of life i guess a phase in life but with my friends
im moving on, i just hope i find someone (:

i cant stand being alone like this for a long time.

life, laughter, love

about the tournament

if anyone was/is wondering bout the tournament.
we lost ha ha, we got 2ND place. I'm not sure if that's a good achievement
but i don't think so anyways thanks for all the support
and i know its just a game. so stop saying it.

Yesterday

It's 9:11am right now, i woke up about 8 am. I'm so tired, it's so early.. No one fun is online so anyone who is reading is go online add me and chat please :)

anyways me, zai, malik, azhim went to play football at rafie's place. it was a lot of fun but i just realized how unfit i was and how bad i play football. so i think i should start doing sports again and slow down on gaming.

moving on, we got 2ND place in a seria tournament which was a lot of fun. there was about 10 of us and it was a lot of fun. thanks for all the support and wish us luck for this on coming Rainforest tournament.

ZIM^^

22 - 26

Rainforest Counterstrike 1.6 And Dota

The dota tournament will be held on the 22 - 23 ( limited 12 teams )
The cs tournament will be held on the 24 - 26 ( limited 20 teams )

regristrations will be 20$
you get the form in Rain forest
last day to send the form will be on the 17th

i hope i see you all there for the cs tournament and the dota as i will be joining both. i am just joining dota just for fun so anyone who wants to come to laugh at me just come coz im not any good. anyways i hope alot of teams will be there and a lot of people will be there to support.

Support Gaming ^^

I found this at her friendster

What Zim Means

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Bulan Ramadhan

2nd september 2008

today was the first day ramadhan. no school today, it was a boring dah. all i did was wake up watch tv till i fell a sleep then wake up and watch tv till i fell asleep again over and over again until sungkai. this is the month for us all to ask for forgivenes and choose the right past and take on a new path.

its 9:13 pm right now. i dont know what to do. i am so bored. i was talking to a nice girl name ning from ms for about an hour. she is sweet and kind. she had to go so now im bored ):

anyways moving on i just wanted happy fasting to all muslims
may you fast for 1 whole month

Exams

WoW It's been a while since i've posted.

First of all i just want to say is that i'm sorry to all those who cares that i haven't been posting. I've been busy with with exams all this while and i still am having my exams. Tomorrow is geography so i'm gonna go study.

*yawn* i'm still so so tired.

good luck with everyone else who are having their exams too.

Pmb Orals

I finished my english orals on monday and it was great!
I't was easy and i had fun actually talking to the teachers in charge.
But today I'm having my Malay orals today for PMB.
I'm a bit scared. So wish me luck.

Good Luck To All The Other Students Who Are Having Their PMB ORALS Today.
All The Best

friendship

I don't know where to start. *sigh*

I know i haven't been a good friend, best friend, close friend or any other kinds of friends there is. I've been selfish, only worrying about me and not how you feel. I want you to know that i will always be here for you, day or night. I screwed up part of my life and i can't correct it my self.

I need you to be here with me for me because i wanna be there with you, for you through all your hard times through all your good times because i want to be there when you smile. I want to be the first person you call for when you need help. I don't want you to feel the pain that I've felt. The reason I've been avoiding you is because, I'm in love with you.

I've always been in love with you. I do all these stupid things because of this feeling. I am trying to make my best of life but i need you here beside me, because you are whats important in my life.

I loved you from the first time i saw you, through new years, through hard times until now. There has always been a reason for me to be happy and that reason is you.

I'm here for you. I Love You. (:

Homework

I'm at home now. Nothing to do *yawn* Going gadong probably around four. I got tons of homework to do first before i go. So, wish me luck hopefully i will get it done by then. I have to finish 3 PMB books which are MATHS, SCIENCE, GEOGRAPHY, and i have to do all from like 2003 - 2007 and plus I got tution at like 6 to 9 pm later on. Then got a match later. *sigh* It's going to be such a tiring day. Let's just hope i get enought energy for school tomorrow.

Zim Is Tired!!

Monday Blue's?

I saw my other blog with the three of my friends, and at the end of his post he said something about Monday blue's? I think today is one of those days again. It started last week and I've been lazy and tired lately. I didn't go to school again today, the same as last week. I don't know why... Maybe not enough sleep from going out late everyday.

Well speaking of going out late everyday. I have to start stopping this habit. It makes me so tired in the morning and usually in a moody mood. I don't like being moody, especially in the morning.

So I've said to my self that I'm really going to try stop doing all my bad habits. Which includes :

1. Going Out Late
2. Sleeping Late
3. Missing School, Extra Classes, Tuition

And much more which i don't feel like talking about right now.

Anyways have a great and wonderful Monday everyone.

Sigh...

This Song For You... Sempurna

Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujamu
Di setiap langkahku
Ku kan slalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa ku bayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Tak kan mampu menghadapi semua,
hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku
oh sayangku kau begitu,

sempurna....
sempurna....

Kau genggam tanganku
saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
kau bisikan kata yang hapus semua sesalku

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Tak kan mampu menghadapi semua,
hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku
oh sayangku kau begitu.

sempurna....
sempurna....

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Tak kan mampu menghadapi semua,
hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku
oh sayangku kau begitu.

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku
oh sayangku kau begitu,
oh sayangku kau begitu.

sempurna....
sempurna....

What I Do For Love.

What a guy would do for love?

Like i've said in the previous post about love. It's hard and unpredictable. To be honest if you think about it, it's easier to help people with their problems but not help yourself. So you need a friend to help you out but sometimes you just cant open up.

Now i need help because i just don't know what to do anymore. I know you can't force someone to fall in love with you which i'm not trying to do. All i'm trying to do is get an answer from her. If it's a "no" i can know my limits but if it's a "yes" it will bring me so much joy that no one has brought to me ever, and i promise i will take care of you.

Here's a small tip for all those guys and girls. Take life step by step. Forgive the people you love and don't give up when life gets hard. Sometimes when you can't do anything anymore and life is to hard to handle and there's no way out, just move on.

Life is all about risks, and i'm taking a risk now. I need to know, Do you love me the way i love you? Or are we just friends.

p.s.

Day And Night I Smile Because Of You.

screwed up life

People always say that their life is screwed up or "fucked up" which is not true. At that very moment or at that time when you say that your life is screwed, That is probably the only time it is screwed up or just temporarily screwed up. Your life doesn't get screwed up unless you let it, And if it is screwed up there is always a solution or a way out of the situation.

There are five main things that can make your life screwed.

1. Your Brain.

2. Your Heart.

3. Your Instinct.

4. Peer Pressure.

5. Wrong Decisions.

Your brain things logically. It thinks smart and doesn't repeat the same mistakes that you have done in the past more than twice. 

Your heart is an essential to your life and the life of people surrounding you. It determines the kind of friends you will have. This is important to you because this will help a lot of people from their life getting screwed up. This can give out different kind of love to different kind of people. Your parents, your friends, your buddies, your family and especially your loved one.

Your instinct change dramatically fast. You may think that you need something now but you actually don't. Sometimes you try to rely to your brain or your heart but both are completely blank, so your instinct comes up and shows you a path but sometimes it comes first and you just do it because that's the first thing that you feel you need to do.

Peer pressure is one of the huge things that screws up your life. You think that since your family members or your friends smoke cigarettes, drink alcohol or do drugs. You need to do it also, but no! That is never the answer. Friends who force you to do these things aren't actually your friends. You can think it over with your heart, with your brain or even with instincts. They are a bad example to you, And this can hugely effect your life and the life of people around you.

Never get into peer pressure and never get your friends or your siblings to be in peer pressure too, Instead help them get out of it.

Wrong decisions. A simple yes or a simple no can make good things turn bad. It can lead you from a friendly socialized person to a quiet person who hates life. If you think with your heart, your instinct, your brain the same time. It can ruin you from choosing a good decision from a bad one. Peer pressure always changes your mind and make you forget what is good. 

I have just showed you a few simple things that can surely screw up your life. You need to make good friends who always support you and has your back no matter what. Find a good girlfriend/boyfriend who gives you motivation and helps you with your everyday problems. Sometimes all we need is people just to listen to us and give us advice. ( I know i do ) Don't do silly mistakes. One small thing that you think can't ruin your life actually can.

Help the people around you and you will be helped.

Family are forever.

Friends are everything.

Love ones are for life.

Your Life, Your Self Is eternity. 

1st august 2008

*yawn*

its first august and nothing speacial is happening. no one bringing me out, nothing fun is happening. i guess i'm just gonna go to netcom again like always. i just wish she would message me or call me. i'm pretending to be happy in front of her but how can i be when she doesnt reply my messages at times. i guess its the timing. i probably am going to fast for her. i'm going to try to lay low for a while until she is ready to give an answer. she can take her time. i don't know what else to say or do to make her happy, but all i can say is im doing my best. i guess sometimes my best isn't good enough.

take care + i miss you..

In Netcom Now

Sigh, I'm so bored today.

There's nothing to do. I got a match later, I hope that will be fun, but i'm just waiting for her now. Waiting for her message. I hope i get to see her, anyways moving on. As i was saying just another boring day here. If anyone got any plans or anything fun to do. Please do call me up.

BrB gonna text (her)

p.s. i hope i get an answer soon.

Bored To Death?

what is there to do in brunei? not a lot but good enough to keep us bruneians happy, but always we want more. i'm not here to talk about life in brunei but my life in brunei. i've been talking to people and yea i have problems. i don't know what to do when your in love when your not in love. we need LOVE, well i do at least. its very hard to be in a relationship, even harder to stay in one.

let me share a small experience of mine that has been going on for a year or so. i've been trying to say things to a girl which has been in me for a while now and trust me its not as easy as you say, trust me. i've been there and done that.

life is hard and we just keep moving on, i'm not a guy who usually takes risks but today i will. well to get on with the story or the "morale" is to take time and be patient in your relationship but not to long. you never know what your "soon to be partner" will say so, you just say it and hope it goes well. thats why we all take risks in our life. some are good and some are bad. what ever happens just move on.

take life one step at a time.
you don't always get what you want.

ZzzzZzZzzZzZ
Sleeping Time.
*yawn*

Crazy Gamers

some of you guys, who know me. i am crazy about gaming. especially CS or counter strike. it's very addictive like an addiction of smoking or something but yea. most people have nicks in CS but i don't i still use zim because its simple and unique in a special kind of way. i'm in a new team called blank, from brunei of course, but we will be changing our team name soon. in the last counter strike tournament in netcom, we were in second place losing by only a point or two. i'm a bit too crazy about CS so i'm trying to stop because i have been playing almost everyday skipping tutions and forgetting family and friends. I'm trying to reduce the time i play so i can have more time to spend, and to sleep like right now. 

good night. x)

This Is Me. <3

For Everyone who wants to know me. First i'll start of with the basics. My name is Azim, But call me ZIM. Some people call me kumis, so you can call me that too. I don't mind if you do because i've grown to get use to it even though people think its offensive. I am currently living in Brunei. It hasn't been that long but i've been living for about 15 years in this world. I was born on the 12th of February. Which, i am lucky to be born on this date because i've grown to love the number 122. I am a rooster, i mean by the chinese zodiac. Not literally a rooster. In this past years i've grown so many colors except black, white and of course pink! I try so hard to make my life successful but it always turn against me. So sometimes you just have to go with the flow of life and see where it leads you. I've felt all the expression of what a human should have but i'm not saying its a good thing. There's always room for new friends in my life. So come and get to know me better because i would like to do the same with you.

I'm sorry if its a bit lame. This is how i usually am. I've never been good with about me's. People usually do this part for me, but i'm trying to do my best. I'll post more soon.

zim is out ( always wanted to say this )