Exams

WoW It's been a while since i've posted.

First of all i just want to say is that i'm sorry to all those who cares that i haven't been posting. I've been busy with with exams all this while and i still am having my exams. Tomorrow is geography so i'm gonna go study.

*yawn* i'm still so so tired.

good luck with everyone else who are having their exams too.

Pmb Orals

I finished my english orals on monday and it was great!
I't was easy and i had fun actually talking to the teachers in charge.
But today I'm having my Malay orals today for PMB.
I'm a bit scared. So wish me luck.

Good Luck To All The Other Students Who Are Having Their PMB ORALS Today.
All The Best

friendship

I don't know where to start. *sigh*

I know i haven't been a good friend, best friend, close friend or any other kinds of friends there is. I've been selfish, only worrying about me and not how you feel. I want you to know that i will always be here for you, day or night. I screwed up part of my life and i can't correct it my self.

I need you to be here with me for me because i wanna be there with you, for you through all your hard times through all your good times because i want to be there when you smile. I want to be the first person you call for when you need help. I don't want you to feel the pain that I've felt. The reason I've been avoiding you is because, I'm in love with you.

I've always been in love with you. I do all these stupid things because of this feeling. I am trying to make my best of life but i need you here beside me, because you are whats important in my life.

I loved you from the first time i saw you, through new years, through hard times until now. There has always been a reason for me to be happy and that reason is you.

I'm here for you. I Love You. (:

Homework

I'm at home now. Nothing to do *yawn* Going gadong probably around four. I got tons of homework to do first before i go. So, wish me luck hopefully i will get it done by then. I have to finish 3 PMB books which are MATHS, SCIENCE, GEOGRAPHY, and i have to do all from like 2003 - 2007 and plus I got tution at like 6 to 9 pm later on. Then got a match later. *sigh* It's going to be such a tiring day. Let's just hope i get enought energy for school tomorrow.

Zim Is Tired!!

Monday Blue's?

I saw my other blog with the three of my friends, and at the end of his post he said something about Monday blue's? I think today is one of those days again. It started last week and I've been lazy and tired lately. I didn't go to school again today, the same as last week. I don't know why... Maybe not enough sleep from going out late everyday.

Well speaking of going out late everyday. I have to start stopping this habit. It makes me so tired in the morning and usually in a moody mood. I don't like being moody, especially in the morning.

So I've said to my self that I'm really going to try stop doing all my bad habits. Which includes :

1. Going Out Late
2. Sleeping Late
3. Missing School, Extra Classes, Tuition

And much more which i don't feel like talking about right now.

Anyways have a great and wonderful Monday everyone.

Sigh...

This Song For You... Sempurna

Kau begitu sempurna
Di mataku kau begitu indah
Kau membuat diriku akan slalu memujamu
Di setiap langkahku
Ku kan slalu memikirkan dirimu
Tak bisa ku bayangkan hidupku tanpa cintamu

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Tak kan mampu menghadapi semua,
hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku
oh sayangku kau begitu,

sempurna....
sempurna....

Kau genggam tanganku
saat diriku lemah dan terjatuh
kau bisikan kata yang hapus semua sesalku

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Tak kan mampu menghadapi semua,
hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku
oh sayangku kau begitu.

sempurna....
sempurna....

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Tak kan mampu menghadapi semua,
hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku
oh sayangku kau begitu.

Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku
oh sayangku kau begitu,
oh sayangku kau begitu.

sempurna....
sempurna....

What I Do For Love.

What a guy would do for love?

Like i've said in the previous post about love. It's hard and unpredictable. To be honest if you think about it, it's easier to help people with their problems but not help yourself. So you need a friend to help you out but sometimes you just cant open up.

Now i need help because i just don't know what to do anymore. I know you can't force someone to fall in love with you which i'm not trying to do. All i'm trying to do is get an answer from her. If it's a "no" i can know my limits but if it's a "yes" it will bring me so much joy that no one has brought to me ever, and i promise i will take care of you.

Here's a small tip for all those guys and girls. Take life step by step. Forgive the people you love and don't give up when life gets hard. Sometimes when you can't do anything anymore and life is to hard to handle and there's no way out, just move on.

Life is all about risks, and i'm taking a risk now. I need to know, Do you love me the way i love you? Or are we just friends.

p.s.

Day And Night I Smile Because Of You.

screwed up life

People always say that their life is screwed up or "fucked up" which is not true. At that very moment or at that time when you say that your life is screwed, That is probably the only time it is screwed up or just temporarily screwed up. Your life doesn't get screwed up unless you let it, And if it is screwed up there is always a solution or a way out of the situation.

There are five main things that can make your life screwed.

1. Your Brain.

2. Your Heart.

3. Your Instinct.

4. Peer Pressure.

5. Wrong Decisions.

Your brain things logically. It thinks smart and doesn't repeat the same mistakes that you have done in the past more than twice. 

Your heart is an essential to your life and the life of people surrounding you. It determines the kind of friends you will have. This is important to you because this will help a lot of people from their life getting screwed up. This can give out different kind of love to different kind of people. Your parents, your friends, your buddies, your family and especially your loved one.

Your instinct change dramatically fast. You may think that you need something now but you actually don't. Sometimes you try to rely to your brain or your heart but both are completely blank, so your instinct comes up and shows you a path but sometimes it comes first and you just do it because that's the first thing that you feel you need to do.

Peer pressure is one of the huge things that screws up your life. You think that since your family members or your friends smoke cigarettes, drink alcohol or do drugs. You need to do it also, but no! That is never the answer. Friends who force you to do these things aren't actually your friends. You can think it over with your heart, with your brain or even with instincts. They are a bad example to you, And this can hugely effect your life and the life of people around you.

Never get into peer pressure and never get your friends or your siblings to be in peer pressure too, Instead help them get out of it.

Wrong decisions. A simple yes or a simple no can make good things turn bad. It can lead you from a friendly socialized person to a quiet person who hates life. If you think with your heart, your instinct, your brain the same time. It can ruin you from choosing a good decision from a bad one. Peer pressure always changes your mind and make you forget what is good. 

I have just showed you a few simple things that can surely screw up your life. You need to make good friends who always support you and has your back no matter what. Find a good girlfriend/boyfriend who gives you motivation and helps you with your everyday problems. Sometimes all we need is people just to listen to us and give us advice. ( I know i do ) Don't do silly mistakes. One small thing that you think can't ruin your life actually can.

Help the people around you and you will be helped.

Family are forever.

Friends are everything.

Love ones are for life.

Your Life, Your Self Is eternity. 

1st august 2008

*yawn*

its first august and nothing speacial is happening. no one bringing me out, nothing fun is happening. i guess i'm just gonna go to netcom again like always. i just wish she would message me or call me. i'm pretending to be happy in front of her but how can i be when she doesnt reply my messages at times. i guess its the timing. i probably am going to fast for her. i'm going to try to lay low for a while until she is ready to give an answer. she can take her time. i don't know what else to say or do to make her happy, but all i can say is im doing my best. i guess sometimes my best isn't good enough.

take care + i miss you..